every time i try to do something to make someone happy, i'm always in the wrong. whether for friends, or mom. what the fuck.
when i open up even just a little bit, i get hurt, and so do others. so what's gonna happen if i open up fully? like kyaw says,"control. don't anyhow."
i hate life at it is now. i'm not trying to be emo here, i just wanna let go and complain.. take for instance, class drama. minimum enthusiasm. only from the 25 boys, and chiasoon and benji. thanks guys. and i'm in charge, what to do? talk to a least responsive class. b div.. got chance? don't think so.. sim has picked irwin as one of his 2 choices.. whats there a chance to be me as the other? i worked hard.
life is unfair. and what u can do, is to take it. take the damn shit life is giving you and if you don't, you break down and die. so its a lose-lose situation.. unless you are a rich geek with a goddamn great understanding mom. fuck the world man. fuck this shit. i wanna get the fuck out of here.
~written to the Dark Lord at
8:33 PM
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