man. i've noticed and realised. like very very late. but hopefully not too late.
as life goes on, i start to learn more and more about responsibilities. i've realised whatever i've done is affecting the people around me. so i'm taking this time to apologise for the things i've done, and things that have not occured yet.
i know that i was snobbish, arrogant, a poser, vulgar, violent, short fuse..blahblah. but i realised my mistake. i'm trying to change, to be a better person. religion has helped cut my temper down but still i blow up occasionally. example when i punched winston and all that. i was stil affected by my exclusion from the B Div team so when provoked, i just let fists fly. i'm sorry to those that i have offended, harmed, and hurt. i know sorry is not enough, but i hope the people out there can give me a chance to improve and change.
putting all upsetting stuffs aside, i think i've made progress. during training i captained the recreation team (not included in B div)! (: means alot to me. ok not really captained, but just put in charge. but captains are in charge right? haha. damn happy la, but my long passes failed me. at least my dribbling was greaaat.
whoohoo, but going home was shit la. someone was like beside me but he joined his volleyball team. oh well. anything la. used to it. same thing, i won't blow it up. just treat as if nothing happen. i forgive and forget. (only under certain circumstances then cannot apply.)
haha. right gonna ciao. quite nice mood tonight, just aches everywhere. cya all!
~written to the Dark Lord at
8:39 PM
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